我叫莫敏兒﹐香港人﹐23歲﹐已婚。 這麼年青就結婚﹐有人說"你老公一定對你很好﹐
你真幸福"﹐ 也有人說"你不是懷孕嗎?那麼年青﹐不一定要結婚阿﹗" 但能跟我老
公一起是我一生最幸福的事情。可是﹐幸福對我來講不是最開心的事情。

我老公叫陳家富﹐香港人但移民到加拿大﹐23歲﹐我跟他是在英國留學時認識的同。
還是同學的時候﹐每天上課我門兩都粘在一起﹐ 但當時大家都是要好的朋友。高中
快要選大學那一年﹐我真正發現自己愛上他﹐我還跟我好朋人笑說"如果家富將來不
是我的好姊妹﹐他一定就是我老公﹗" 記得﹐畢業典禮後我喝了一點點酒﹐我一邊
大聲哭﹐一邊跑向他緊抱他說"家富﹐我真得捨不得你。每天上課沒有你怎樣辦?"

後來﹐在大二的時候我門多了在網上聯系﹐就這樣我門都發現大家喜歡大家。 那年
冬天﹐我買了機票到加拿大找他。在2005年12月19號﹐我跟他真真切切的在一齊。
他是第一個男生能令我愛得有天旋地轉的感覺。幾經辛苦﹐由我門有了孩子﹐決定要孩子﹐然後因為孩子發育不良流產, 我門在2007年6月9號結婚﹐我單純地想只要我兩有相同的目標我門一定會努力成功。所以﹐我天真地讓他回去加拿大完成大學學位。可是﹐因為每日太想他﹐還有我那些大小姐皮氣,令他面對我時覺得很有壓力﹐就是這樣﹐他在我不在他身邊時﹐他跟別的女生一齊。

我發現時﹐我門只結婚6個月﹐而他的理由就是我的皮氣太大和給他太大壓力。我跟
他說過我會原諒他﹐不竟他也大年青吧﹗但他對我態度﹐一天比一天冷淡﹐也開始
變得兇。雖然﹐我跟不是一齊相處﹐但我每一天都哭得要死。曾經﹐他也因為
格性不合向我提出離婚﹐但我不要面地叫他考累清楚,希望留下他。我也有想過離婚﹐也假裝堅強寫一封email。(需然還未寄出)

Dear Fu,

Hello, finally we got devoice. But, dun worry, when you read this e-mail, I have totally got over you already, no hard feeling, baby! Haha. Well, I have something to talk to you.

First of all, I will soonly close the hang seng bank a/c which we opened together b4 and since there is $20000 belonged to you, I think you should get it back , dun be “婆媽” , I dun want to have any financial bonding with you anymore, so we dun owe each other anything. I will put the money into your HK a/c or if u want me to transfer the money to ur Canada a/c, I will do it. Please give me your a/c details. Like name, a/c number and bank name. U can give me via msn or e-mail. And about the gold dat your mon gave me, since I am no longer belong to your family, I think you can get it back if you want, or if you just wanna leave it to me, it’s ok! I will sell the gold and divide the money into half, so I will put half of the money into your account too. If you have any better idea, please tell me.

Secondly, it is my pleasure and honour to be your 姊妹, your girl-friend and be ur wife in the past years. I used to love you so so so so much which I cannot even explain why did I love you so much. I used to love you that I totally lose myself and shut myself in my mind. This is the really first time I feel “Love ”, it is sweet but sour at the same time. Now, I am totally relaxed, I get my freedom, I become happy, I get my goals, I enjoy my life so much. And, I finally realize that you are not that kind of man I need, I think I have moved on already. It is quite nice to be a single or un-married person.

I have also learnt a lot from you and from our relationship, such as I know how to download NDS games on the internet, haha, and knowing me is a self-centered person which is a BAD BAD thing. Etc. The main thing I really want to thank you is you really do make me a stronger and more responsible woman, thanks a lot Eric.

We had been through the happiness and sadness, although, at the end we cannot be couple but I do hope we can be friends. Coz I think our friendship is more valuable, it will be such a shame that we just end the friendship becoz we got devoice. It is very hard to find someone you know very well from high school until now. And your Fettesian friends too, I never speak to your carrington’s brothers but I am sure they are still very looking forward to hearing from you. So, whenever you feel need to talk, we will be on ur msn. (p.s. dun get me wrong that I am still hoping to be with u, NONONO, haha) I dun mind to be your 姊妹 again, haha! Honestly, I feel more comfortable and happy to be your friend coz we do have something in common ,which I really find it’s fun to talk to u as a friend. In deep down, u r always my “姊妹”, so whenever I come across any problems, I might come up to u! 

Lastly, please say thanks for me to your parents, please tell them dat I really thanks them for teaching and helping me a lot. Although, at the beginning, I told you that I dun really like them. At the end, I really like them a lot, coz they had been being patient to talk to me and teach me things. I dun really feel annoying at all. Your parents really have a unique thinking which is rational, well-planned and useful. Actually, I think they are very lovely and adorable. Hehe. They really love you so so so so much, so treasure this family relationship. Girl-friend/Boy-friend/Wife/ husband can leave, but parent will never leave.

So, this is the end of this e-mail. Have time find me la!! And add oil on your studying and your future work!

Wish you all the best! 祝你生活幸福,快樂﹗

Your 姊妹 Man Yee J

現在﹐還算是一對有明無實的夫妻﹐可是我真是很深愛他. 過去怎樣難敖也敖過﹐但今天我真的覺得很難敖, 有人教我應該怎樣做?我真的不想失去他...